Skip to content

Tag: #selflovesundays

Chapter 12 – The Calm Before the Storm

Welcome to #selflovesunday!  I’m so glad you’re back! As you know really well by now, I’ve had a couple of weeks where I haven’t been “killing it” in all facets of my life. Emotionally and physically I had just been existing but I changed that once I made up my mind to do so. Had some great workouts this week, and managed to talk to some people about my business (very hard for me).  Yesterday I really let my depression get the best of me and had a complete breakdown – I mean a SUPER ugly one, the whole UGLY CRY thing (you know, complete with sound effects that freaked my pups out).  Haven’t had one of those breakdowns in a long time, and even though my eyes are swollen from all the crying it was extremely therapeutic.

Sometimes It’s Okay to Let People Know You Need Them

I want to thank my friends who reached out to me when they saw my post on social media – I was very scared about how I was feeling and I cannot say how much it meant to me that so many people took a lot of time out of their evenings to make sure I was okay.  That meant the world to me.  Normally I wouldn’t share that stuff but I realized I needed to some positive people in my world to get me back to Pam.

Everything hit me all at once – I won’t leave a list because it’s all stuff everyone deals with every day.  It just felt like the world was collapsing on me and I LOST it.  I can battle one or two of these crazy things at a time but when they all got together and formed an freaking ridiculously strong army, I didn’t handle life very well at all. So TODAY I am practicing SELF LOVE!!!!  I am a warrior, and I CAN handle this – I just lost sight of that last night.  I have amazing people who reminded me.  

Calm Before the Storm (I AM THE STORM!)

Remember I was questioning surgery/no surgery for my shoulder in my last post?  Well, this week’s training went really well and I feel so much better about that now.  I’m approaching this new week believing in myself again – like the quote at the top says.  I have felt a little like I haven’t had a mission with my training but just took a couple of weeks to let my shoulder/arm have a tiny bit of rest (THE CALM BEFORE THE STORM!) and it’s time now to put EVERYTHING back into place.

Doing food prep this afternoon (I got away from it a little bit during this less than positive time period) and have set a goal to get rid of these last 10 stubborn pounds by my birthday.  Then we can start on the next phase of the journey – which I can’t wait to tell you about soon.  “Never say never” – how’s that for a teaser?

Let me leave you with this cute little video as we move into a new week.  I hadn’t heard the song until I saw it on my timeline, but I LOVE IT!  Might be my new mantra.  I’m sure I will have mental and physical setbacks, but they will not define me and they WILL NOT derail me.  We are all so much stronger than anything and everything trying to take us down.  My loves we’ve got this, so STAY PAWSITIVE!  Let’s go after our dreams with every single fiber of our beings.  

Leave a Comment