I wrote my last post about never giving up no matter what life tries to throw at you. Well, basically that’s what it was about. No matter what pitch it throws, you have to stay in the game and keep swinging. Some days you might go down swinging, or even watching those amazing pitches fly by – but OTHER days, oh my, those other days you will hit them out of the park! (I confess I’m watching some afternoon baseball as I write :))
My friends, it’s confession time. I have not been PAWSITIVE PAM at all this week. Stress has really gotten to me, and I haven’t been sleeping well at all due to that. Now, I am NOT complaining I promise. I am sharing my real world with you because I owe that to you – you’re along for this journey with me, and I can’t promise it’s always positive and happy but I do promise I will always be 110% genuine and real.
Even though it was a bad week emotionally, I did not quit my training – I didn’t skip any workouts but they were not my best. I told Terry today that I have completely lost my focus – I don’t know what it is I’m trying to accomplish right now, and I feel like I am just existing. His simple but powerful words of wisdom: “You will get it back.”
I have let just about everything get to me emotionally, rather than just focusing on the tasks at hand. Rather than just writing, I let it get to me that really no one is reading my writing, so why am I here? Why am I trying to make a difference sharing my story and my thoughts when no one is present to read them? This led to some very negative thinking about whether I am cut out for this writing thing or not.
Another life lesson learned from Kevin Hart’s book has to do with Patience. In my last post I quoted what he said about Persistence, and now I have to share his thoughts on Patience. “The companion to persistence is patience. It drives away the anger, disappointment, and resentment when success doesn’t happen overnight. Patience is understanding that your moment will come at the right time, and your job is to get ready for that moment. Because if it comes when you’re not prepared, then it vanishes just as quickly. Know that your patience will always be tested, and if you can pass that test, you will be testing again and again, until the rare few left standing reap the rewards.”
IT REALLY IS ALL ABOUT SHOWING UP, NO MATTER WHAT
Yep, that pretty much sums it up. Why am I here? Well, I AM a writer, even if there aren’t many reading my words just yet. I have to keep putting them out there because this is what I want to do – someone will show up as long as I do. This is my passion, and I owe it to myself to pursue my passion with everything I have. Same with my physique/fitness goals. I can’t give up just because I don’t have a concrete next step in mind yet. I have to keep working like I’ve been working! The next step will become apparent as long as I keep working. If I stop – well, I can’t stop… Refocus, and get back after it!
I WILL NOT FAIL
Terry knew I would leave the gym today desperately trying to regroup and improve my attitude. He knew by saying, “you will get it back” that I would do anything possible to find my focus, to dig deep and get my motivation and discipline to reappear. So few words, but so powerful. I am still stressed about those same things, but I have to deal with that stress much more positively instead of letting it steal my joy. I LOVE writing, yet this week I haven’t. I gave in to the desire to feel sorry for myself but that got me nowhere. So the time is now to let that ISH go! ONWARD from here. Thanks so much for hanging with me and sharing the ride through this thing called life. Together we are unstoppable!