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Welcome to Pawsitively Pam 2.0 :) The REBOOT

Had to share this quote I posted on my Sports Vixen website because it just speaks to me.  I have a necklace with this and I am really trying to LIVE THIS.  Once I left the environment that I had been in for my super successful transformation (just because I needed a change to try to figure out what I wanted my next goal to be, and not be intimidated by the amazing athletes there who have just been killing their shows on stage.) Those ladies are so incredibly motivating but I was feeling like I didn’t quite know where I could fit in terms of what type of athlete I can be if I didn’t want to compete, etc.  It was really hard to do, but I changed gyms (because SUMMER AND AIR CONDITIONING!!!!) and didn’t have a coach watching me train twice a day anymore so I started out showing up ehhhh when I felt like it.

I was just wasting time, doing half-ass nutrition plans and half-ass workouts when I decided to go.  Better than nothing, but completely off track from the discipline I had for the last 2 years 24/365.  Well, now you KNOW that attitude does NOT fly with me for very long – sooooo  now I’m all in with my whole ass!  I don’t adapt to change very quickly so I took a while to come around to going somewhere new, new training plan, new nutrition plan….. but it had to be done, because I was NOT losing what I’ve worked so hard for up til then.

So, what did I do to get myself back into WHOLE ASS mode?

  1. OK – Coach on board, plans in hand.  Time to DO THE WORK and EAT THE FOOD.  Back on the meal prepping, drinking 2 gallons of water most days, cutting back all the wine I enjoyed while I was sliding into Phase 2.0
  2. I’ve been trying out different times of day at the gym to see when it will be less frustrating to get my workouts in.  It’s crowded but not impossible.  Working mostly from home makes it so much easier to fit them in!!!
  3. I signed up and entered the Redcon1 Readiness Trials – 8 Week Transformation contest.  Started June 25, finish August 20.  I needed a goal and a deadline to work towards, and I will not let anything stop me this time.  I have a different focus, different support system… and more discipline.  Met new people that keep me honest and disciplined even when motivation stayed in bed.
  4. Coach has a goal for how far I can get during that 8 weeks (basically 6 now) – then how we’ll keep going after that and use the momentum to get to our ultimate goal.
  5. DO THE WORK, IN AND OUT OF THE GYM.  PERIOD.   Buy the food, PREPARE the food, drink the water, and ONLY eat that food until my ONE cheat meal a week.
  6. Also, I finally started journaling again.  Clearly I haven’t been blogging but I needed the meditative aspects that happen for me when I put pretty pens to pretty paper.  This really helps me clear my head so that I can a few minutes for real meditation.  If I don’t journal first, there’s WAY too much monkey mind going on for me to sit still.  My routine is sometimes twice a day, depending on how I feel – I might write Morning Pages to get the thoughts flowing for the day, and then at the end of the day I usually turn tv OFF and music ON and see where the pen takes me.  I know most of you reading this are far better writers than I am but I just love to do it and don’t let it cause me stress if the writing doesn’t look perfect or whatever.  My brain is far from perfect so I can’t really expect my journal to be 🙂  I try to say hello to the journal at least once a day even for just a few minutes to capture how I felt that day – if not happy, what caused it, and what am I going to change!  I do use super cute pens and notebooks – after all, my writing space is my happy place so I want it to make me smile!  I will link to some of favorite things below. One tip I’ve found that has helped me get into the words a little more is using music to help my thoughts flow freely.

Gorgeous Leather Journals from Soothi

Office Max Cute Journals

Time to be great, loves!

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Life HAPPENS! Where I’ve Been, and I’m Glad You are Still Here!

Hello everyone!  I’m so sorry I’ve been away for so long, but I haven’t stopped working.  The picture above is exactly TWO years from the first day I started my transformation.  I have changed so much not only physically but mentally as well.  I went through a LOT of ups and downs during the two years as we all do in our lives.  The difference for me this time was that I KEPT GOING, even when I didn’t want to.

Motivation is what gets your started, but discipline is what keeps you going even when you don’t feel like it.

I get so many questions about how I stay motivated, particularly because my journey has been such a long one and I had so far to go.  The truth is NO ONE stays motivated 100% of the time, it just isn’t possible.  We all want to stay in bed, lounge on the couch, eat pizza, chocolate, Starburst jellybeans, drink wine or margaritas, live in our pajamas for the whole weekend – whatever your guilty pleasure is…. and that’s normal.  However, the difference in those who reach their goals and those who don’t (and I was a DON’T for far too long) is not motivation, but DISCIPLINE.  When motivation leaves you, when you just cannot stand the thought of more healthy food or another workout, that discipline has to kick in.  You remember why you started this journey, and you buckle down because what you set out to achieve will mean so much more than what you want RIGHT NOW.

I’ve promised since you met me here that I will always be open and honest, with the hope that somehow, someway I can help you with your own goals, whatever they may be.  So it’s time for full disclosure.  YES, I stayed disciplined for a very long time, I worked really hard because I wanted to prove to MYSELF that I could do this.  However, at the two year mark, I admit I pretty much started coasting and drifting.  I let some really ridiculous things get in my way – emotionally, I let things derail me because I just wasn’t strong enough to keep going.  I lost my focus because I let those emotional things take over.  In hindsight, they weren’t that important at all.  But you never know that when you’re going through it, right?  I’m here to tell you that it is not only OK but a requirement to put yourself first in your life when you find things getting you off track.  It happens – the key is not to let whatever it is derail you for TOO LONG.

Break down, cry, sleep, write in your journal, even drink wine or whatever you prefer – do whatever you need to do to process your sadness, your grief, even your anger.  The absolute key here is that you do process it – don’t live there!  Process it, figure out how to use it to make yourself stronger and more positive (if it’s a relationship, what did you gain from it, how did it make you a better person?)  This takes time, and it looks different for everyone.  You have to just keep moving forward – no matter how slow, or how sad, or how mad you feel.  The only thing that will help is to keep making progress – going backwards will just make you feel worse, trust me!

I did so much crying, so much eating, too much wine, and not nearly enough writing…. and not nearly enough of what was making me happy in the first place.  I didn’t work out like my body needed me to – for me, it isn’t just the physical aspect of fitness but the mental well-being too.  It took me longer than I’m proud of to move forward, but guess what?  What matters is that I have!!!  Life happens, but quitting doesn’t have to.

Here’s to US! Those of us who fight battles every single day but we keep going – we keep SMILING, we keep dreaming.  THAT is what matters most, and I’m so happy that I managed to do both of these.  Together we’ve got this.  STAY PAWSITIVE my loves.

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Chapter 11 – It Really Is True – Your Happiness Is Up To You

Hey there!  Welcome back to Truthful Tuesday.  I’m so glad you’re here.  I haven’t written because I didn’t think I had anything worth sharing, but then I realized I’m sharing LIFE with you, so here goes.  This past week was a REALLY rough one emotionally, and I really got off track with my goals, both writing and fitness related.  I got my workouts in but did not eat according to my meal plan AT ALL.  I was just a complete wreck and I let that get in the way of everything.  This morning I woke up knowing that it was time to GET OVER IT.  Time to be POSITIVE and let go of what I cannot control, and take charge of what I can!  I let this last week get away from me, but no more.  I could be upset with myself, or I can give myself a tiny little break and be thankful that I regrouped when I did.  Today, I choose self love and happiness!

Full Disclosure Coming Up!

 

Surgery or Not?

I’m struggling with a decision about whether to, and when to have shoulder surgery.  I did not injure it, I just have some chronic issues in there from the surgery I had 11 years ago (scar tissue, some bursitis and bicep tendon inflammation).  I really dread the thought of another rehab and recovery, so I’m trying to decide if the pain is bad enough to warrant it yet – and it not now, when?  I am not able to give my upper body training 110% like I want to, and I know the shoulder is holding me back, but I am struggling coming to a decision.  I keep hoping it might improve and I won’t have to decide!  That has gotten me down over the last couple of weeks, then combined with last week, I’ve just not been able to get myself together.

Starting My Own Business

I also took a leap of faith and started my own business (direct sales) – and it’s hitting me that I don’t know how well I can really do at this!!! I’ve been needing a little extra income for a while and they had an offer that was too good to pass up, so I didn’t 🙂  But now it’s starting to sink in that wow, I don’t really know a lot of people and I don’t want to “turn off” anyone I do know by sharing too much.  However, I know I need to pay my bills so…. catch 22.  I’m really excited to get products in hand so I can use them myself and be able to speak firsthand about them.  What’s that saying “everything worth having happens outside of your comfort zone”?

Uncertainty and Stress

So today it feels like everything is kind of uncertain in my little corner of the world and I sure hope I can manage to get things back on track, because I do NOT do stress well at all.   I hope it will pass soon but I cannot control that no matter how much I wish I could.  I have to take a deep breath and send some positive vibes out that everything will work out SOONER rather than later.

Suck It Up Buttercup!

I want my corner to be happy again!!!  And there’s only one person who can make that happen  – ME!!!

Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.

Today, finally, I am choosing happiness.  The stress is still there but a positive mindset can conquer just about anything!  With the right attitude ANYTHING is possible, and I am sorry that it took me a week to really get this into my head.

Stay PAWSITIVE my friends!

 

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Happy Friday! And a Tease of Things to Come…

Hi everyone! I know I haven’t been here in a while, but I’ve been doing some serious homework offline and out of sight.  Hopefully this will benefit all of us :).  I am planning a series of posts to tell the story of my transformation because so many of you have asked and been so supportive along the way.  I know, SO many thousands of transformation stories out there, they’ve been told over and over, but I want to share mine with you with the hope that maybe it can encourage someone to take action.

I’m trying to figure out where I fit into the online space – so many social media hashtags for each day of the week, so what’s the best way to get my message out there?  It isn’t just about me, it’s about what I’ve been through to change my life for the better and if I can help even one person that’s incredible.  So hang with me while I weed through the social media quagmire.  I am going to need your help with this.

Call to action:  if I write something that you like and that resonates with you, I hope that you will share it with others.  I read all this stuff about needing huge email lists and growing your blog following, and I cannot do that without YOU!  But I have to provide something you want to share so that’s on me.  Let’s do this together!  I want feedback, questions, suggestions on what you want to read about – come at me.  Let me hear what’s on your mind.

My story isn’t just about how much weight I’ve lost.  It’s about overcoming toxic relationships with people you normally wouldn’t write out of your life because society says you shouldn’t, and learning how to accept that what YOU want means more than whatever anyone else wants for you or thinks you should be.  It isn’t the number of pounds, because I’m still a work in progress.

It’s about how you will see in my “before” pictures that my smile never really reached my eyes – it was on the surface only.  Today, my smile comes from within.  I’m not where I want to be quite yet, but mentally and physically I am so much happier and healthier and I want to share with you how I have gotten here.  Both the “oh my gosh how did you gain so much weight” and the “oh my gosh how did you LOSE so much weight” parts of the story, because they go together for me.  I owe it to you all to go all in and share the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I will be working this weekend to create “chapters” in the Rise of the Phoenix so to speak, and I promise to post one each Monday combined with some other fun things in between 🙂

So while I plan and write this weekend, PLEASE share with me whatever you want to hear/read.  What questions do you have, what do you want to know?  We are all in this thing called LIFE together!  Stay PAWSITIVE my friends, and please give me some feedback so I know what you might want to read.  Love you all and happy weekend.

 

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Monday Motivation

I know, #MotivationMonday is probably a bit overused but I want to try to make it worth something to you all.  Each Monday I will share a quote that really means a lot to me, and a little motivation to go along with it.  Feel free to please leave feedback!  This is part of my getting organized and trying to offer useful, regular material since you are giving me a few minutes of your time to read.

If I can convince you of ANYTHING, it’s that you simply must believe in yourself.  You have everything within you to make your goals a reality, but you just have to be willing to take action.  Don’t let fear of failure stop you!  I am proof that you can do anything you set your mind to no matter how many obstacles life throws onto your path.

Think about it.  We are our own worst critics, so why can’t we turn that around and be our own best cheerleaders???  Enough negative self talk, because it really does manifest itself.  Believe me, I’m the queen of that.  But turn that around – if you don’t like something about yourself make a plan to change it. Figure out something that makes your soul smile and GO AFTER IT with all you’ve got.

Stay PAWsitive!  It matters.

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Sundays and Writing

Hello lovelies.  It’s been FOREVER since I’ve been on this blog and I have missed it.  I have so much to tell you and I will be sharing several times a week so please come along with me.  Wanted to just say hello and give you a quick update.

Finally I have an actual schedule for posting and themes for each day of the week, so I feel so much more organized and focused.  It will be a challenge to write every day about the designated theme but hopefully it will be fun for all of us.

You can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will.  ~Stephen King

I love writing with bright colors especially when my mood is grey.

Life is not just black and white, so choose to live in COLOR!  Enjoy the colors around you even when, especially when, your mood is heavy or sad.  We will do this together a few times a week.  Until then, relax on this wonderful Sunday evening and take a few minutes to get ready for Monday.  Stay PAWsitive!

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Revenge Body?

So there’s a show on E TV with Khloe Kardashian called “Revenge Body.”  I just heard about it today.  I want to get some input here.  I know a lot of people want to make dramatic changes to prove something to an ex, like “look what you’re missing” type of motivation.

I am playing devil’s advocate here.  I set some personal weight loss/transformation goals that were/are JUST FOR ME.  No revenge no external motivation at all.  I wanted to transform for myself so that I can be happy with ME and feel comfortable in my own skin.

I’m interested to see what you guys think – is one type of motivation better than another?  Is it more productive to get in shape and make yourself better/healthier as revenge for someone dumping you, or is it more positive and likely to have lasting results if you do it for YOURSELF?

I advocate for doing things for yourself.  The opinions of others are nowhere near as important as how you feel about YOU.  I’ve been living this for many, many months now, but I didn’t really have a ‘revenge’ reason per se.  I continue to work because I’m doing this for me, not for anyone else.  However, does revenge motivation work long term?  Ready…..GO!

No right or wrong answer here- just want some feedback.  I’m sure I was dumped eons ago because I got fat, but it took me decades to do something about it – but that’s not a bad thing in my eyes.  I am working so incredibly hard to transform myself inside and out SIMPLY FOR ME.  Let me know what you think – let’s talk this out my lovelies 🙂

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October – my favorite month!

Autumn is here!  Well – in theory, because it’s still a bit too warm for my taste.  But something about turning the calendar to October makes my heart happy.  Football, hoodies, gorgeous leaves changing colors… I feel energized and excited to see what my favorite month has in store for me.

Saw this quote on Instagram today, and really wanted to post it here so I can talk about it.

The fall teaches us a lesson every year.  Trees go bare and banish dead parts that no longer belong.  The leaves, that change colors, an then fall to the earth represent the things that we truly need to let go of.   – Sylvester McNutt

Isn’t this a great way to think of Fall?  All of the things that are weighing you down, let them be those leaves that are going to fall to the ground.  Let them go, and feel the freedom, enjoy this beautiful season!

I have some very aggressive personal goals for this month, but rather than feeling overwhelmed, I feel motivated and determined.  This is the perfect month for me to tackle these goals, and I want to take you all along with me.  A very, very dear friend of mine gave me a little tough love this week, reminding me that I cannot call myself a writer if I don’t WRITE.

I have been focusing on my fitness and health but have neglected my creative self.  She was so right.  Just talking about writing doesn’t build a following, doesn’t inspire anyone, and really just frustrates me.  What’s that old saying “don’t talk about it, be about it?” Yeah – that.

So many thoughts in my head, and several people have encouraged me to just put them out there because they might inspire or interest at least one person.  That is a great way to think about it, and that helps me keep things in perspective.  I don’t have to write the GREATEST content I just have to be present and share myself with you all.  🙂

Set yourself some goals, right now… go ahead.  Whatever negativity is holding you back, let that go like those leaves that will be falling to the ground.  Only YOU can make your dreams come true, so come along with me.  What do you have to lose?  Let’s make Autumn our best season yet.

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Never. Forget. 9/11/01

Today has been a strange day, because it’s the first Sunday for NFL football, which is usually my favorite day of the year.  However, it is also the anniversary of the saddest day in our nation’s history.  This is NOT a political post at all (though most of you who really know me know where I am on the political spectrum).  I really just want to make a couple of points and call it a night.  Today I will not talk about the NFL games that I’ve been counting down to since the Super Bowl ended last year.

Today I will talk about the day…. That day that NONE of us will ever, ever forget.  Where we were.  Who we talked to first…. The emotions… The tears… It all seemed so surreal and unbelievable.  How could this happen to the GREATEST country on earth?

Then the magic happened.  After tragedy came the magic.  Our wonderful, beautiful, hopeful country came together…  TOGETHER… To heal.  To recover.  To clean up the unthinkable sites where terrorism had hit our tough as nails country.  We. Came. Together……

The days, weeks, months after that awful, awful day that still brings tears to my eyes really showed WHAT MAKES AMERICA GREAT.  PLEASE let’s forget politics, and political parties on this day.  Let’s think about the PEOPLE of These UNITED STATES of America.  UNITED, NOT DIVIDED.  It didn’t matter what color, religion, sexual orientation you were – we were TOGETHER, to help, however we could, to help our country heal and come back greater than ever.

Think about that….. Color….. Religion…. Sexual orientation.  DID NOT MATTER.  We were all AMERICANS.

Today, we are all consumed with the NFL players and whether they will stand for the National Anthem.  I’m heartbroken that we think this is the most important issue facing our wonderful country.   We are free – we have the right to stand, kneel, sit – whatever we choose on any given day.  How AMAZING is that????

Today, can we PLEASE remember back to 15 years ago, when nothing else mattered but healing our country?  Our country, the greatest on earth, still has massive amounts of healing to do, and we ALL need to play our parts in this.  UNITED we stand, but DIVIDED we fall, and my greatest fear when I put my head on my pillow at night is that we are far too divided.  Let us not allow hatred and bigotry to get in the way of the greater good. Please…..

NEVER. EVER. FORGET.  And let the lesson we learned about ourselves as Americans 15 years ago come back to us today.  Our differences are so much smaller than our similarities.  United we MUST stand.

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You MUST Make Time for YOU

This post is dedicated to all of us who are sooooo busy moving at the speed of light, dealing with work, kids (fur or human), stress, laundry, cooking – you get the picture.  We are so busy just trying to get through this crazy thing called life that we forget to LIVE.  I don’t have a spouse or family, but I do have 7 tiny dogs who require a lot of attention and care (which I couldn’t be happier to provide).  So many of you have huge demands on your time, that you wonder how you can even stop to breathe.

But I want to tell you – I promise this is the truth, because I’ve figured it out the hard way.  STOP being so busy that you’re exhausted, cranky, run down, and still have no time to do the things YOU want to do.  I know it’s hard when you have a family. But guess what?  I PROMISE that if you make time for YOU- to exercise, to meditate, to read, to write – whatever your soul needs – you will be much happier and productive with all those things you have to do.

Someone told me “I don’t have time to go get my nails done.”  OK, well I love having my nails done so I make time for that every couple of weeks.  I don’t HAVE time, I make time.  I hear this a lot too: “must be nice not to have a family so you can go to the gym twice a day.” I realize that the folks who say this to me aren’t being mean, they really just can’t figure out how to fit ME TIME into their routine.  Again, I don’t HAVE time, I make time because my health and wellness became the top priority for me.  I was miserable, depressed, and unhappy.  That wasn’t doing anyone any good at all.  So yes, I sacrifice some things so that I can go to bed early and hit the gym before dawn.  The gym might not be your “thing” and that’s totally fine – my point is find your thing and make time to enjoy!!!! Everyone in your life will be better for it.  Taking time for you is not selfish – it is necessary. 🙂

There are a million excuses, and almost all of them are real and legitimate on some level.  Please understand that I am NOT saying people aren’t busy doing very important things, and I really am fortunate that it’s easier for me to make time than probably most of you.  But my lovelies, who is going to take care of YOU if you don’t?  Make a list of all those “I wish I had time to…..” and then take a good look at your schedule and see when you will fit some of that in to fulfill your own happiness.  It will be so worth it.

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