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Let me apologize for being absent this week.  I won’t do that again because I have missed writing.  BUT, right now I have to tell you why I can barely sit still or think about anything besides football.  I never, ever want to wish a weekend away but I just can’t wait until Sunday. I get to see my Seahawks in person on Sunday!!!!!  Can’t remember the last time I was this excited about something. 

Tonight, Dad and I will go watch the Hornets play, catch some playoff football before and after, maybe check out the Seahawks party after the game.  I just need to keep busy because I’m crawling out of my skin with excitement.  An awesome coworker invited us to their tailgate party tomorrow morning, even knowing I will be in Navy and Green.  There is also a Seahawks Road Crew tailgate party so we’ll be busy until time to go to the stadium.

Monday, I get to share the Hornets game with Dad and a couple of friends, so I will either be extremely happy, or welllllll, back to focusing on basketball 🙂  Whatever the outcome, this is a once in a lifetime type of experience for me, and I’m like “little kid at Christmas” hyped up about it.

I know this post is really boring, but I just needed to say hello and check in.  Well aware that most people who might read this are Panthers fans, but I’ve been a football fan since long before the Panthers existed so just understand I don’t hate the Panthers, I just have to cheer against them when they play my team! I’ve found a Facebook page for Hawks fans coming to the game and that’s pretty awesome.  12’s travel well it seems.

I won’t talk about the actual game just yet, saving that for tomorrow! But, YES I THINK THE HAWKS HAVE A CHANCE – a good one!  Until then, #goHawks from this #12livinginPantherscountry. 




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The Night Before…

Well, tomorrow is “the big day.”  The physique transformation contest I have entered officially kicks off tomorrow, and you should understand that I have STARTED this thing every year for at least the last 3.  I make it a few weeks at most, and then I throw in the towel.  I just haven’t had the discipline.  I also think I’m afraid to fail, so I somehow think it’s easier not to really try (I know that makes NO sense).

But, this year HAS to be different.  I am going on record here, that I’m ALL IN from January 11 through April 3.  You all are my witnesses.  And my support system!

Discipline, that’s such a hard thing.  I talk such a good game (so this time I’m not talking much about this to anyone but my readers), and I am a great planner (man, you should SEE my planners!!!).  As I have discussed before, I fall short on the execution part.  Where does discipline come from?  How do some people have vast amounts of it, while others (me) have none?  My former trainer and very good friend told me more than once “You have the body you’re willing to work for.”  And so there it is.

I know soooo many athletes who seem to have no trouble with discipline (though I’m sure they do).  They show up, they work. I talk about doing those things. I am sure they don’t always feel like working, training, eating to fuel their performance…. Yet they DO all the things. Whatever it takes.  So, I’m on a quest!  Not only to see what it feels like to be an “AFTER” but to figure out what’s behind this big word “DISCIPLINE.”

Whatever it is you’ve set your mind to do, whatever goal you have, let’s finally figure out how to knock it out of the park!

The path to success is to take massive, determined action.

Anthony Robbins



The time is here, the time is now.


I’m not going to go on and on about all the fitness goals I want to achieve, well, mostly because I never achieve them.  I know the experts say share you goals, make them public so people can support you.  But this time, I’m telling just a few people (so they can keep me accountable), and then I’m just going to DO what needs to be done.  I’m a complete PRO at talking about it!!!  Executing, doing – that’s where I’m a complete rookie. 🙂

But like my favorite country music lady says, it’s time to start paving another road because being unhappy and unsatisfied pretty much stinks.

We all have our struggles, so let’s share them!  Let’s help each other get past them. There is no reason we can’t, and all kinds of reasons we can.


Do what you can, where you are, with what you have.

Teddy Roosevelt

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Happy New Year!  I’m not going to make a long list (or even a short one) of resolutions that I won’t keep yet again. I’m keeping things super simple as I start this new year.  I just need to make some attitude adjustments that are long overdue.

Hey, you out there – yes, YOU!  I think some of what I’m going to say might apply to more people than just me.  Let’s make this the year we:

  • STOP being our own worst enemy.  We wouldn’t talk to anyone else the way we talk to ourselves sometimes, so let’s stop the negative self talk and believe in ourselves.
  • Set some simple goals to do things that make us happy!  Why not focus a little bit of energy on things we know we will/can do?  Make a goal to do something we love on a regular basis.  Take a walk outside, read a good book, light a candle and sip some wine while listening to your favorite music.  Be good to ourselves!!!  I believe this will help us dive into the hard things that we want to achieve.
  • Make a gratitude jar. Change our mindset from what didn’t go right, what we didn’t get done, what we wish we had done to what we DID do right, what we are grateful for!20151206_155859000_iOS

Here is something I want you to remember:  This is the beginning of ANYTHING you want.  

I’m going to leave you today with this quote, and I think we should all return to this often as we work to better ourselves this year.  Whatever that means for you, then go after it with all you’ve got.  Keep in mind the positive things, and make your own list of those. Feel free to share!  I would love to hear from anyone who might take the time to read this.  I’m not saying that some of our goals won’t be ridiculously hard.  Of course they will, but by giving ourselves some pats on the back and stopping to enjoy the little things to help keep the focus on positive vs. negative, I truly believe we will make far more progress.  Let’s do this!  Stay pawsitive and remember: This is the beginning of ANYTHING you want.

Close your eyes and imagine the best version of you possible.  That’s who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn’t believe it. 

C. Assad

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And to All A Good Night!

Sadie says it’s really tiring being this cute.  🙂 Hoping that everyone had a special holiday, however you chose to spend it.  I know some people look forward to being surrounded by family, some spend it with friends, and some spend it alone and are perfectly fine with that. I really hate that holidays cause people so much stress when it should be a time of joy and peace.  So, I wrap up this Christmas night wishing you love, peace, and happiness.

I know it isn’t quite 2016, but I just need to do a little recap of this past year really quick because I’ve been thinking about this quite a bit today.  I had arm surgery in October 2014, so the first months of 2015 I was in a cast.  That messed with my head quite a bit because it was a lengthy recovery and I used it as an excuse to be lazy.  STILL haven’t gotten my groove back in terms of training, but it’s coming!

I saw a picture on Facebook today of 3 pups in my lap exactly one year ago (Rufus had just joined us), and had to smile because today I am lucky dog mom to 6 amazing little rescues.  I’m so fortunate that I could give them a home and happiness.  I always have 6 little reasons to smile every day.

Laid off in February, and that was upsetting, but thankfully I found a contract job in April.  Earlier this week, I got a wonderful Christmas gift – a full time job on the team I’ve been working with since April.  I love the job, I love the people and what a huge relief going into the new year.

Things are looking up I would say.  I’ve started DOING, and not just wishing or wanting to do, and I’m working on being happy with me along the way.  This thing called life is a work in progress, but at least progress is happening!

“When you know clearly what you want, you’ll wake up every morning excited about life.”  Mark Victor Hansen


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WOOHOO I worked out, and I LOVED IT (and the most amazing book you have to read!)

Now, this might not sound like such a big deal to you if you knew me “when” – when I didn’t even have to think about it, going to workout was just something I did automatically.  When I lived to lift, to be strong, to get stronger, to hear that loud angry music in my ears…

Well…. honestly, I cannot actually remember how long ago that was.  I had given up on it because of all my limitations, and just as I was falling in love with boxing, another setback.  Man, did I ever let ALL THAT MESS totally destroy my passion.

Yep, I lost it.  I was “happier” not going, not trying (or so I tried really hard to convince myself).  If I didn’t try, I couldn’t fail.  I was succeeding at withdrawing deeper into my introvert shell though – man, I earned a gold medal in introverting.

I just finished the most AMAZING book that I can honestly say is life-changing.  “Year of Yes”.  You all know I’m on this personal development mission, so I added this to my list of things to read.  What I didn’t know was that this book is about ME!  Well, ok – I don’t have three daughters, and I am not a super successful celebrity writer and creator of award-winning television shows.  But wow, could I ever relate to so much of what Shonda writes. As a child, she played in the pantry with canned goods.  As a child, I played in closets – I mean, come on, they were amazing places to create my own little world!

She has a chapter about her decision to lose weight, and that one was like a big ole anvil falling on my head (remember Roadrunner and Coyote?). Basically you have two choices, she writes (I’m paraphrasing).

  1. Be happy and content with where you are, whatever body you’re in right now.  Embrace it, love it, treasure it for all the wonderful things it can do.
  2. ORRRRR – do something about it if you’re unhappy.  Quit with the “I need to, I should, I wish…” and just do it already.

I’ve heard these words before in different forms, but for some reason she got through to me.  So, instead of dreading the boring 30 minute workout I had scheduled at the gym, I went in with a positive attitude finally.

And guess what?  I smiled, I laughed, I worked hard, I broke a sweat, and I AM GOING BACK.  We all have our stuff that gets in the way of things we know we should do, but in my case, it’s been my own head getting in the way.  Now, I know I have a very very long road back, and I’m facing ankle surgery, so that will be yet another obstacle to overcome.

I’ve also read that creative people really need exercise – it isn’t optional. They need it to keep their creative brains working.  Hmmm – ok then.  I’m trying to be creative.  Another reason….  I just need to find what I used to love, accept where I am today, and plan out then execute to get where I want to go.

Shonda also told me that if I want to be a writer, guess what?  I have to write.  Every day.  No matter what. And then it will get easier, and I will get better.  See, I told you this book taught me a lot!  Time to come out of that introvert shell sometimes and enjoy life.  Enjoy the things I used to love before all that got lost.  Shonda told me to dance it out, and that makes perfect sense to me.


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Sometimes you just need to LAUGH!

As I wrote earlier, I’ve just been down in the dumps for a bit.  But finally I made my way back to the Hive (Time Warner Cable Arena) to watch my Hornets play – felt great to sit in my seat again.  My basketball family welcomed me and a feeling of comfort and happiness found its way inside.

Being there, feeling the energy and excitement.  Just what I needed.

I say this to remind everyone, no matter how bad things seem or how sad you feel, just make time to LAUGH, hysterically, out loud, for some silly reason.  It works wonders!  The video I’ve attached is Hugo the Puppet who photobombs everyone on the big screen, and for some reason, every single time, I laugh like a little kid when he does his thing.

Don’t be afraid to let go sometimes.  We spend so much time being “in control” and living such serious lives.  Nothing wrong with that, but just remember, laughter really is the best medicine.  Be silly, laugh at something simple, most of all, ENJOY THE MOMENT.  I just hadn’t been doing enough of that.


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Putting my tagline to the test :)

So…. how do YOU handle it when you do the right thing and encounter people who hate you for it and do their best to make life miserable for you?  I know the answer is NOT to give them that power, but honestly, are we really able to be immune to hurtful people?  I am not.  But, I’m using this as another step in my personal development journey.

“Pawsitive Vibes Pawsitive Life” is my tagline, so I had a nice little conversation with myself on how best to live this even in the face of things that upset me.  Life isn’t always positive – of course it isn’t – it’s this “crazy thing called life.”  I’m keeping it real with anyone who takes time to read what I write.  I was REALLY bothered this week, because I gave someone the power to get in my head.  THAT was entirely my fault, and I have to take ownership of it.

I’m choosing to turn negativity and judgment into something positive.  I am making some positive changes in my life (stay tuned for a post just about that) so that I will feel better about MYSELF.  I think negative, hateful people have more power if you aren’t prepared to lift yourself up, and I haven’t been.  So, I had a little meltdown this week (thanks to a very dear friend for putting up with it!) and got myself together.  Negative, mean people can only get to me if I let them, and guess what?  I don’t HAVE TO LET THEM.  I am powerful, I am strong.  Mean people who try to make others feel bad about themselves are the incredibly weak ones.


I let things bother me for longer than I am proud of, but to me, the important thing is that I have taken my power back, and am making myself a better ME!  🙂 Silver lining.  Now, everyone go out there and have a wonderfully amazing weekend, and stay tuned for tomorrow’s post.

Until next time, STAY PAWSITIVE no matter what life throws at you.  We can do this.  And remember, it’s always right to do the right thing anyway.

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Personal Development is DIFFICULT, and SCARY!

Ok, I’m on my way.

  • Blog started – check
  • AWESOME logo/brand design by Creative Galina – check
  • Facebook page created – check
  • Twitter account created – check
  • Books about successful blogging ordered (one read) – check
  • Researching small site bloggers that I want to follow – check

Wow – and there is STILL so much to do.  I’m wonderfully excited, and also intimidated and afraid.  So much research to do, to learn how to get people to my page, how to write things people might have an interest in, getting “fans” to my Facebook page – this is a whole new world for me.  And it has been a very long time since I’ve had to learn something completely new.

  • What if no one reads what I write?
    • Well – so what?  I’m doing this for ME anyway, right?  
  • What if I don’t have anything funny or interesting to write?
    • Well – again, so what? I’ve said that this is “just me being me” so there’s really no way to mess THAT up, right? 
  • I want to be witty, funny, interesting, thought-provoking… that’s a lot of pressure!
    • “Be me” and the rest will come as it comes – baby steps!
  • It is really scary to put myself out here, even though this is something I have wanted to do for years.
    • What is the WORST that could happen?  Ok then – keep going 🙂what if i fall
I write this to say: if there is something you’ve been wanting to do, thinking about doing, but just aren’t sure how it will turn out?  GO – DO IT!  You owe it to yourself – aren’t you worth it? You just might fly….
Until next time: Stay pawsitive!


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This is me. Quirky, opinionated, passionate me.

I figured I needed to start off by telling you a little about me.  I am:

  • dog mom to 6 amazing rescue pups
  • fanatical sports fan (Seahawks, Hornets, Trojans, Tarheels, Avalanche, Braves)
  • lover of music (all types, music is my soul)
  • avid reader (old school, I prefer to hold the book in my hands)
  • opinionated but not judgmental
  • obsessed with hoodies and SO happy when it’s cold enough to wear them
  • passionate about things that REALLY matter to me
  • very lucky to have friends who “get” me, it’s a small circle but an awesome one
  • quirky but I love my quirks
  • a work in progress in terms of personal development (mental and physical) – stay with me on my journey!
  • so much more than I can capture in a list!

People are asking me “why do you want to blog?”  I say “why not?”  This is something I’ve wanted to do for years and so here I am.  Me being me.  There is no “theme” or particular topic, just things I feel like sharing. I am planning some posts, others might just pop into my head, and we’ll see where it goes!